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hmmm, can't sleep, what to do,blog, har har... fuck man, i think i'm becoming more and more idiotic day by day.. my postings are rubbish, and they revolve arnd the same stuff... blah blah...
okiez, how's this??
i want to get a masters after my degree, sim's not direct honours... must study hard...
yupz...
hullo, i very thick skinned today,oops, sorry for scaring u pamela, (jicheng's friend) haha, sorry lack of sleep.
ok wait, i go eat first, i very hungry
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okay, ate, knnb, missed the scv 55 show, my mummy told me it was gd...
SOME PPLE ARE SO MEAN!!!!!!!!! not from sim still kao pei so much abt the contestants from the pageant. evil bitch, ur stupid comment got taken down, evil evil person, i find it very hard to post an evil comment on internet polling, knn, shut up lahz. dun say anything abt my girls, they're all very nice... cb kaiz... u den try harder... stupid... ...
angry alr... ...
okiez,saw my banner, damn big, ehz, okiez... got diff views, some say look like me, some say dun look like me... ehz, okiez, i think dun lk like me, haha,bloody ha...
went to sch today, for pbf, met the gang, then left for breko's with grace to meet darling cheryl... then ehz, just found out tt my samsung pay's coming like 2 wks ltr. OH BLOODY HELL NO!!!!!!! cb, i very smart, go and spend spend spend, my dec allowance is gone too, just took extra cash from my mum yst, yep, gone too. how lidat, how??? no more clubbing, no more smoking, no sentosa this sat, no going out, no transport fare, so what??? stay at home, dun go sch... but nv fear, ann alws has a way out... trust in me... had a great time with the darlings today, comparing the past and the future, seems like i did pretty ok :) conclusion: i'm a nice, nice girl... haha (sucks to u, cherylios)
cheryl very sad, hoho, hiakz, hiakz, dun worry, u're hot as hell, but nvm lahz, guys like, hoho... i also like, yum yum...hoho...
tmr, must go sch, i must, concentrate and not talk so much
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its nice cold cold weather... snore snore. can go to sleep soon.. after i finish up some stuff.....
yay!!!! NO MORE SCHOOL!!! whahahahaha. eat your hearts out you sim people. hurhur. aye, but not like you guys go to school anyway...just like me!! hhahaha. im feeling like i have less of a burden now though..good. but now the next thing is results.. :(
damnit the sneaky samsung people tricked us!! knn. i want to sue them. idiots.. 2 weeks my ass. liars..i hate liars.. one month then say one month la.. change here change there. now i cant go shopping!! if my turqoise heels are gone by the time i get my moneyy... watch it la. i really want those heels..
plus i have only like, some allowance left.. apparently i advanced this month.. what the hell!! i dont think i did okay.. my mummy 's lying to me too.
hahah!! but ann's worse.. she took her entire december allowance already!! lewser. now no more money la, see.. anyway, i also dont have..not much better off..
i have a boooorrrrrinnggggggggg lifee....... it revolves around ann and grace!!!! WHAHAHAHHAHAH.
i want to see stars.. lovely lovely stars.. make you think a lot.. hur.
you know that there are two types of night time???
one, when you go out with your friends, and have fun..and you forget your problems.. not by drinking ahh i dont recommend that hahah. and then its just you and your friends..nothing else matters.
the second type, when you're alone at night, and everyone else is sleeping.. then you just sit by yourself and get surrounded by your own thoughts..very nice. then you think about what makes you happy, what makes you sad, and what makes you who you are. i like those kind of nights. take a stick, some apple and aloe vera juice, and you feel comforted..hurhuhruhur.
anyway. im going to find another good book to read..i want to borrow the da vinci code and angels and demons again. yay!!! just finished the sister's keeper..not bad.
see how young we look.... that was just last year. man oh man. feel so old now... :(
p.s. sorry ann,cant find a pic with you where we look young.hahahahahhaha. except the cj ones. hiakz.
hoho,i changed my lang back to eng, yay, nabei, i thought it wqs grace.. had a hard time trying read chinese, hoho, took clb!!!, knnb, hate friendster lahz
cb... trying to upload a beeetifool pic of my HANDSUM friend gavin she, haha, my darling, muackz, muackz, i love u!!!!!!!! hohoho... stupid gavin, wo ai ni, ni ai wo mahz???
haha, nvm upload here, ehz, but he more handsum than tt, hohohohoho... heh hehz, anybody for takers???he's lonely, haha, oh and one requirement, must like dragon boat, har har
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blah blah, bought my new heels, matt gold from pretty feet, not bad, ok lahz got a discount, cos it was the last pair, from last season, yay! whatever... went to sch to practise with the rest, thought it was quite meanlingless, but fun!!! haha, stupid pageant pple... went down to thomson to eat prata, one whole big gp of us, again, ithink the prata uncles, dun liek us, cos our orders quite big and messy, took cab home with cai xia and derek... went down to pick some stuff up from stupid vyasa, and stupid kelvin didn't want to send me home, call me siao, idiot... humph...
haiz, stupid... ... i think beautifulpeople.net's damn stupid lahz, hurhur... whatever lohzzzz, nabei, still have to wait 3 days for the "beautiful pple" to rate u, so superficial, hahaha... nvm lahz, interesting, liek friendster lidat... haha... i was invited to join, not i join myself one arhz, i might as well add. idiot, cannot check the forum, nabei, all go die lahz, sumore got 4 categories, yes of cos, not bad, not really, and nono, not at all....
so currently, mine is the more of the first and last one, knnb, i'm definately not the last one okiez, chee bai kias... haha. omg, so freaking funny.. okiez, will check back with u in 3 days, to see if i made it, hohoho. keninah, still have to lie abt my age, crazy beautiful pple...
keninah, was liek damn in, just now, now bordering on the out side, nabei, u think u stock market harz?
come on, let's do the twist, twist and shout, blah blah, twist my tiny lil mouth, hahaokie,marcus must call me to work out, i've decided to work out, get a toned toned body,bleah...
muackz muackz, give u a big kiss as a reward, anyway u said i need make out buddies, hoho, sianzzzzz, boring lil clean ann now... cannot lehz, like weird weird lidat now, how did i manage to make out last time???? yeah, at zouk and funny places, called clubs, scandalous, sleazy ann, haha. god, pls bless me with a more daring heart and gd fun... PLEASE... ...
haiz, still cannot... good clean, pure ann, haha...
hagard me, but no make up, so shuddup... hoho, okay, i lk liek an anorexic bitch, shld i put on wt???? trying, btu knnb, after my depression, i can't seem to put on wt,okiez,y is my blogger thingy in chinese??? can some one help me out, haha, i just realised msn is quite fun, can be stuck at it for like a few hrs
dumb dumb cheryl,i love u, lesbian tng, i love ya too, not forgetting butchytingting, hohoohohohohoho. yay, i'm playing mj on friday night at hong quan's place, haha, playing money, yay!!! i love gambling...
yay, michael jackson's leaving in feb, and not dec like what i thought, stupid idiot matt, make me so upset... MY HEAD HURTS LIKE A BITCH, and MY NOSTRILS HURT!!!!! WHY?!?!??!?!??!??!??! knnb....
hello, pple, kiss me quick now, bow to me...
fuck, i just realised i need to get lots of stuff, and i erzzz, kind spent my dec allowance alr, mummy, give me xmas money now,pls, can i have an advance on tt??? haha... must go to sch, knn, i like have no sch lidat...
hoho, bummer me, MUST GO TO UK!!!
i hate singapore, stupid tiny shitty shithole...
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the night sky was really damn nice last night... lots and lots of stars, plus the moon. it was a crescent.. first time ive ever seen to many stars in the nightsky in toobrightlylit singapore.. niceee.
just got back from dinner.. we went to this zhi cha place at holland drive.. its damn cheap!!! like, about 50+ for like the 4 of us?? my dad took out 2 50s cuz he was expecting the bill to be higher.. how come so cheap?? and we had like 5 or 6 dishes i think. and it was not bad.. i usually hate prawns, cuz i think im slightly allergic to it. but there was this prawn dish, like cream corn and mayo with fried prawns or something.. absolutely yummyy!!!
i really want to get my heels, but just now i was at the holland v xodus.. they dont have it anymore!! they only have gold and black.. ill probably get the black if i cant find anything nicer.. :( hopefully novo has some nice stuff.. or aldo?? i think its novo anyhow.. haiz.
im feeling sooo cranky.. i duno maybe im pmsing. no money to buy ciggies.... :( anybody want to buy me a pack?? hur. i think ill go dig for coins.. then later go esso and buy..more expensive but oh well, kopitiam not open so late...
sigh. haiz.
im getting depressed.... why why why..
this is always a song tt i've alws found intriguing, frightenning even... ...
Always Look on the Bright Side of Life
Some things in life are bad,
They can really make you mad,
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle.
And this'll help things turn out for the best.
And....
Always look on the bright side of life, (whistle)
Always look on the bright side of life, (whistle)
If life seems jolly rotten,
There's something you've forgotten,
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps,
Don't be silly chumps.
Just purse your lips and whistle, that's the thing.
And...
Always look on the bright side of life. (whistle)
Come on...
Always look on the bright side of life...
For life is quite absurd,
And death's the final word,
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin,
Give the audience a grin,
Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.
So always look on the bright side of death,
Just before you draw your terminal breath,
Life's a piece of shit,
When you look at it,
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.
You'll see it's all a show,
Keep 'em laughing as you go.
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.
And always look on the bright side of life,
Always look on the right side of life,
Come on guys, cheer up.
Always look on the bright side of life.
Worse things happen at sea, you know.
Always look on the bright side of life.
I mean - what have you got to lose?
You know, you come from nothing,
you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing!
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interesting trivial, the composer actually commited suicide... oh well... ... the ironies of life...
hello, everyone,. i'm back, from zouk, tonight had rnd sessions at zouk... but i hought hse was better, met a few old friends tonight, zhen hao, back from australia, and finally darling manross with the firm firm abs, even tohugh he told me he had put on wt, crazy dudde, stillk as toned as hell lahz, didn't even see his double chin, met marcus and friends too, pretty andrea was there too, haha, i think all the guys are like gaga over her, hahahhahaha... oh yeah, went down with shanon and his friends...
zouk was alright, just like tt lohz, didn't drink much, haha,today was a cheap cheap day for a single with no dates, haha, only paid for supper, and a drink, tt's it...met grace, cheryl and prabu at breko's at bugis b4 zouk... cheryl came over to stay again, haha, lucky, cos alex MOLE, gave us a lift back, since he stayed at simei, bleah... or she wld have to pay for her own cab fare home, cash's kinda tight now, blah, i want my money, soon, soon... met yuey outside zouk, stupid idiot came down but didn't go in, was meetign lester outside...
oh well, another boring, meanlingless day, haha. oh well, tata, hope my validation comes in, it's stupid, and superficial, but who the fuck cares...
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HELLO DIMITRI!!!!!!
I'm so sorry i cldn't make it, too tired!!!!
BUT I PSYCHOED ALOT OF PPLE TO GO, SO YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dimitri... i'm pregnant!!!! HAHa,I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today, i only had 2 hrs of sleep, and i had to rush off to expo to do a advertisement, for the singapore tourism board, marcus' lobang, had quite a few pple from my sch, so it was aite... brought tons of clothes, cos i had no idea what the fuck was executive wear... ... then we had lunsh at expo, i had orange julius, i had to rush off to tanjiong pagar. my modelling instructor, colin, asked me to go for a casting for a bridal show, 120 bucks for 1/2 hr, i guess i cld buy another extra top, but yeah,more for the experience, i mean i only had a lesson, and he asked me to go down, so i guess i must have done smtg right, but aiz, haha, didn't feel so, i realise i donot have the self confidence to do it. It's a different thing when u're prancing outside zouk, and differnt thing, when u're competing against older and more experience models. fuck, i've nv done anythinbg remotely like tt b4, i guess i shld have started earlier, to gain the experience, i felt so dumb and stupid and clumsy and so freaking ass shy... nabei, yeah, i didn't get it, hohoohohohho, oh well, kinda expected it anyway... ... oh well,at least there's the next thurs class to lk forward to, we're moving on to facial expressions, smtg tt i can't do on the "runway". yep, gonna focus on tt part.
after tt i went down to the sleazy pool parlour at fareast shopping centre to lk for gilson and gang, played pool, for a while, haha, gilson said i was gd for a girl, nabei lahz, i am gd... i think, hohoho.. a lil bit anyway...
and then we had to move on to zouk, i was throwing my temper, irritating everyone, giving them a black face, sniding them and complaining at the top of my voice, and they were all so nice to me. come to hink ofit, i can be quite a bad person at times,i feel mortified at my behaviour sometimes... i think i even irritated the ever so joyial gilson, too... oh well, sorrie, bad day. i feel bad now, i dun understand how derek can be so nice... i was making alot of useless comments, and bad too, i feel so uhz... now, but oh what the hell whatever, i'm not all surgary inside anyway...
then we rushed down to zouk, grace was pissed off, and i was pissed off, pms plus no sleep, plus waiting was what i absolutely hate to do... whining and complaining at the top of my voice, i think everyone was shocked at my behaviour, there's smtg absolutely wrong with me, i have to broadcast every single thought, regardless bad or gd, and every single complain...bleah, bad ann... evil ann...
nearly got into a bitch fight, with these two girls at zouk, so pissed off alr, still piss me off, imitating my whining, when i'm like less than a m away from them, idiots... but what ehz, i was kinda shocked when ang and yol started defending me so vigourously, scary aiz, they all... felt abit bad after tt, but at least they kept their mouth shut after tt. we got more than ten pple, u only have 2, so shut up...
went to great world for dinner, i had yoshinoya, andrea very pretty... ... jealous... so sweet... knnb, and she's so gd natured sumore.. hohoholucky bf...
vyasa called, asked me down to the lime party at momo,agreed, thought it wld be fun to see some celebrities, yeah whatever, boring... at least they had free food and free booze, and some free gift bags, whatever...
i can't socialise at all, i'm anti social,i feel bad, when the really outgoing ones try to include me in, but it just kinda seem so superficial... yeah, oh, i saw denise keller, yeah, she was the real thing, the rest, eye for a guy, blah blah, and singapore idol blah blah, ok, whatever... i mean i guess they're nice and all, ehz, actually i also dun think tt they actually thibk themselves a stars, so i better cut all the crap. we went down with vyasa's friend wendy, tiny thing, larger than life though, i dunno how she does it, she can talk to everyone, impressed, ehz, for me, i rather be the wall flower, got nuffin to talk abt anyway. bad mood... they must have been wondering what's up with this stupid tall girl, yeah, i was wearing heels and like towering over all the tiny girls there... oh well...i saw ben teo there too, y is he everywhere???? funny dude...
hmmm, i'm pah jiaoz, i just realised, slightly, hohoh, oh well, whatever...
gilson's damn pah jiao, hahahhahahahhahahaha,cheryl is too, hahahhaha, tim lim also,hahahhahaha, so many pple are pah jiao, go take a look at ur eyes, maybe u are pah jiao too, hahhahahaha, especially pple with big big big eyes. andrea's also a lil,but not ob, i think cos her eyes too big alr, liek china doll lidat, her hair's damn nice lahzzzzzz........ knnb... haha. lucky she's nice, or i'll be so ultimately jealous of her, hohohohoohhoohoh.
i think i'm evil... seriously,OMG,i dunwanna be evil, at least i'm not bitchy.. :)
i want new clothes,now!!!!!
angry alr...
better stay in my own lil ugly world, with cheryl and grace, haha, dunwan to lk at all the pretty pple, alr lahz... nabei....
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• keep my messy room forever neat
• laziness
• start cutting down on smoking, for real
• being nice to my mummy and daddy even when im cranky
• stop eating so much even when im not hungry
• quit spending so much, no more bad debts......
• start going to school
• start studying. !!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay!! there you go, my christmas resolutions.
eep, i cant sleep. is it because ive had too much caffeine, or that im just too freaked out by the fact that i know nothing about tmr's econs paper??? hmm i think its both...
ladidaa. go smoke...
lalalalalallalalalaalalalalalalalalalaaalalala.
my mummy and daddy know i smoke. and i thought i was such a nice sensible girl in their eyes. :( hur. actually they knew after that stupid incident when me my sis and her bf were at the kopitiam downstairs, and my dad came by to drink coffee with my mum, he saw our packs of ciggies. darryl tried to hide them quickly, but i guess he saw them.. then he was like telling my sis just now, you know actually that day i saw your packs of cigs, and i wanted to tell you and cheryl that yall dont need to hide,cuz we already know. bleah.
gahh. i told my mum that i dont smoke excessively, when she said like, if you drink and smoke i dont mind, as long as you can stop as and when you want to. oh no,i lied...because i know i cant..
come to think of it, ive been like super honest and havent lied to my parents the past couple of years..
ive been soo good.
now i just need to stick to my resolutions...
HEY YOU, YESH U!!!!, Take ur fist and stuff it right into your ass, u piece of shithead, think properly before u start thinking, arsehole, i wish i cld strangle u to deat, poke ur stupid eyes, and bend u double, the other way round.
ps: i need to smoke real bad
oh man, i made a huge huge boo boo, fuck, and i actually opened my big mouth to actually tell pple abt it, OMG, i must be the biggest most evil bitch in the whole world!!! i alws dun think before i speak, blah, blah ,blah,blah, tt's why i get into so much trouble, i'm so sorry... i had no mean intentions,i hope it doesn't get blown up into some cat fight again!!!
i alw get into trouble for the stupidest things, and the thing is tt she's so nice!!!!!! hope she doesn't get the wrong idea, before i clarify everything.
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just got back from dinner at some international food buffet thingy at ngee ann city.. grrr just now i told ann that i wasnt gonna eat so much, but i did!!! knn. dont want to eat tmr already la.. need to lose some weight.
my mummy was in a foul mood today. apparently, my sister's school called her and my dad up to inform them that my sister hasnt been going to school for like, the past 2 3 weeks. then my mum said something along the lines like her being expelled or some shit. my god. how can anyone be so fucking stupid?? seriously la, i never thought that she would display such form of stupidity. this is really hell stupid. her brains must have been seriously deteriorating the past few years la. either that or dunman high terrorised her so much she detests school now. whatever. i just hope that she's at least smart enough to get her ass back in school.
as much as we all hate it, singapore does look at people's degrees, and they equate smartness/capability with having honours/masters/doctorates whatever. i think that's fucking bullshit too. but that's the way singapore works. so, yeah, whatever. unless some free spirit comes along and decides to take matters into their own hands and start brainwashing all the already-brainwashed singaporeans into getting that silly idea out of their heads. no one needs a degree to succeed in life.
sorry, i digressed. anyway, i heard that you can get expelled from poly but then reapply and get back in. bloody shithead wasting my parents' money already on one extra sem cuz someone's obviously too stupid to even pass all her subjects.
see la. i wanted to ask my parents for an advance during dinner initially, but now my hopes are dashed!! my mummy's in such a bad mood now, i dont wanna disturb her, and my daddy just gave me some to use till saturday, but now its all gone la. ccb.
ann asked me to blog... hur. nothing to say....what should i write about?? she went to smoke..ive only had 2 sticks today!!! im healthy!!! hur. or maybe its cuz i just woke up..
anyway.
ive realised that im such a stoner.. how the hell can i stone for like, i dont know, more than 3 hours plus, 4 hours??? sometimes i do wonder what i think about.. sometimes its just nothing in particular... just having some alone time maybe. hahahha. cuz we all need some quiet time alone.. just to think about anything and whatever thing we have on our minds....
so why do people think so much? some people, we know that they're thinking, but others, while they seem so happy all the time, may be going home and getting depressed and crying all the time. we will never know. guess that's just certain people's way, either they show it or they hide it, its something personal yeah.
for me, i dont understand why some can think so much, can harp on certain issues for so long.. if it bothers me, i just dont think about it la. thinking so much isnt going to help. i used to be the type that thinks and thinks, but now im not. i just leave it and forget.
maybe im an escapist in that sense.
okay,too much for early morning...
pictures!!!!!!!!
eve 6: here's to the night
So denied so I lied are you the now or never kind
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
Put your name on the line along with place and time
Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
Comments: i used to love this song so, it broke my heart, when a friend alerted me to the fact tt it was a one night stand song, i thought the guy was so in love with her, blah, or maybe he was, but he can nv get away from the feeling he wants from her...
i'm so scared tt i'll nv find someone who will truely love me, i've actually been told tt this song is so me, good for a lil while,also heard b4, and oh also the direct one, yeah... kinda sad... quite saddening when u actually go think abt it..
dishwalla: every little thing
Let me in to see you in the morning light to get me on
and all along the tears they come see all come
I want you to believe in life
but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
will you find out who you are too late to change?
I wish I could be every little thing you wanted all the time
I wish I could be every little thing you wanted all the time
some times lift me up just lift me up don't make a sound
and let me hold you up before you hit the Ground
see all come you say your all right
but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away-
you've gone away and will you find out who you are too late to change?
I wish I could be every little thing you wanted all the time
I wish I could be every little thing you wanted all the time some times
Don't give me up don't give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all salvation
will you find out who you are too late to change?
I wish I could be every little thing you wanted
comments: i actually wanted to every little thing tt this guy wanted, and it was actually even weird, our ex-relationship... and i dunno, was so pathetic, screwed up tt few mths of my life, feeling so upset, tt i went depressed, and the funny thing was tt he wasn't even what i really wanted... but i'm happy now,and thus i'm grateful,it is true tt after every set back, u become stronger, i've made many mistakes, and i wld nv make them again, becos i know i'm better than tt. yup :) i'm actually a very traditional girl, despite the way how i lk and behave...
fabulous: trade it all
[Fabolous talking] Fabolous, Jagged Edge, don't be fool, I'd rather have you ma' Than everything, I'd give it all, just for you, yeah
You're the one baby girl, I've never been so sure
Your skin's so pure, the type men go for
The type I drive the Benz slow for
The type I be beepin the horn, rollin down the windows for
Never been no whore
So to get you in closed doors, I buy you everything in those stores
This, that, and those yours
As long as Fabolous the only one you let that grin show for
You ain't gotta spend no more,
I'm a put a rock on your hand
You ain't gotta say we just friends no more I shine,
you shine, it never been no flaws
I ain't like most who just wanna get in those drawers
'Cause every king need a queen
And with me and you girl I ain't tryna let a thing in between
It ain't a thing, nahmean, chicks hate, show 'em the ring and the green
And let your middle finger be seen, it's on
[Chorus - Jagged Edge]
Girl I'd trade it all, money, cars and everything All,
even give up my street dream (my dream)
All, anything to have you on my team (I don't care baby)
All, baby girl I'd trade it all (I'd trade it, yeah)
Even give up my good green All,
and I'd give the watch and pinky ring (oh yeah)
All, anything to have you on my team
All, baby girl I'd trade it all
[Fabolous] Uh, don't front ma', you know the way I ball's to pick and roll
Like Stockton and Malone when we play the mall
I be goin out my way to call
'Cause I love the way your hips make your jeans seem like they too small
Them see-through tops with your titties exposed
When you kick off them shoes there ain't bitty whose toes as pretty as those That blonde hair look good, straight down, bun or the braids
And I ain't gon' talk about them light-browns under your shades
Bust right, thus tight
Got a thick set of thighs and struts like......uh
Yo' the game taught this brother to mack
But I think I slipped when I saw them full lips covered with Mac
You got everything that others would lack
Along with the F-A, B-O, L-O, U-S Your patience I personally admire
'Cause I started out a player now I'm 'bout to have my jersey retired,
for real
[Chorus] There ain't no mights or maybe I done did wrong,
so I'm a make sure it's right for my baby
You know how tight that my day be
And how long and stressin them flights to L.A.
be Ain't no rumor gon' get back to your friends
Before I let a nigga disrespect you I be back in the pen
Front to back you a ten
You got me thinkin 'bout puttin a car seat in back of the Benz, uh
[(Chorus) 3x]
comments: i want!!! but ehz, sometimes i do get guys like tt, but i dun get the feeling for them, am i really gonna be stuck with guys who treat me like crap ultimately??? no matter how nice they are sometimes and their gd intetntions intially, their intentions turn out bad... ...
review: i dunwan a relationship now, all this yakking makes me seem like i want it, just reminiscing abt the past...
ok, finally back at zouk, after a two wks hiatus... hmm, stayed at mambo, for like the longest time, left, cos vyasa was whining, hohoho, they actually left without telling us, nabei, lucky got another guy tt drovw with us, he drove a land rover, so cool, haha, very funny, damn old sch lahz... lucky i wore a skirt, i got to sit infront, hoho, damn cool lah, like a stylo lorry, tt i alw wanted to go to zouk in... met the old cj pple, like martin and maple, handsum hunky martin, haha...went to prata place at river valley, i like the crispy prata at thomson more, poutz....
mambo was actually really gd today, haha, yup, i liked the early part of mambo, yup, cldn't bear to leave... phuture totally sucked, bleah. the midgets were out in force today, stepped on my poor feet...
oh yeah, and i went to sch today, haha, during break... decided to pay to change my timetable, anyway, i dun go to my own classes anyway, hoho... oh yeah, met cai xia too, pretty... taller than me, hoho... i've very limited gfs tt are taller than me, i think only got 2 or 3 haha... oh well, s'pore what...
kelvin sent us home, cheryl came to my place to stay... yup, then we went to the beach for a nice walk, haha... so calm and quiet, i miss the quiet moments i spend at the beach, i dun do tt anymore, i alws go to the beach when i'm sad, there's a particular spot, which i love, i alws go there after a breakup, and other sad stuff, very peaceful, it's a nice spot, i call it the ann thinking spot, :) oh and i found out why the outlines of the moon is so even, it's becos it's refection of the light,like the horizon, cool shit, alws wanted to knoe, yay, now i know, oh and i've decided on a trade mark, like the gwen stephanie, put 3 dots near ur eys, in the shape of a triangle, coolios... although everyone else thought differently...
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oh btw...
should i or should i not???? help!! cuz the cutting's not very nice.. grrr. i think 150bucks.
boo.
they also have the minty green version.. hahha so cute, so sweet. but i dont think i suit cute and sweet hmm?? :((((
chao chee bye. blogging about all this shit really makes me feel like stomping down to the stores and buying up all the shit now!!! like right this bloody moment.
this is the winema heel. haha
this is the stupid pair of heels tt i stupidly picked
this is how short it actually is, knn, how to prance??? if they dun let me buy a new pair to replace it, i'm not turning up. sick... huff...ps: too lazy to go down and show ya my other nice nice heels and wedges, next time, show u my polka dotted wedges
and i'll buy the higher heels for the stupid pageant and buy my gold heels for u guys to see, haha... ... wait for the nice visuals!!!
and then i'll put up pics of my fav clothing, hohoho, so exciting
cheryl darling's coming over to stay at my place next wk!!! we're gonna chill, watch dvd, eat pizza, and drink pepsi, i gave up one vice, guzzling beer every day, not one but a few bottles, (breeko's one for one deal, haha) oh and i also like their meaty franktato very much, it's my fav, yum yum, cheryl and grace alw like to steal, i look so pale, still wanna steal my food, meanies. i also like the cold milk there, although cheryl thinks i'm being stupid for ordering tt, but smtgs i also drink the orange juice. :) oh yay, i can't wait, so exciting...
grace u also wanna come???
wenting can come too!!!!!!!!
i'm hungry, i'm eating, still hungry, tmr afternoon cook abalone maggie with spiced prok cubes and luncheon meat, if my mummy, dun buy back food for me, smtg's she forgets tt i do actually wake up in the afternoon occasionally instead of the evening... ... dunwanna spend even more money then i alr have to.
i love online shopping!!!!
wahahwahahahhwah so many nice things to look at and salivate over.. ahahahah. really seriously retail therapy. i advocate shopping!! healthy shopping!! cuz it makes you healthy and releases endorphins!! :)
i dont how much of that is true. i made it up myself. hahahaha. but its tried and tested what.. by me!! better then chocolate. hur.
im going to get my brown guess sweater, turqoise xodus heels with swarovski crystals (not confirmed yet, difficult to match la), then i want a pair of jeans... i need a pair of jeans!! i dont even own one.. so sad. okay, i may sound weird, but hell. oh! i have one pair..which i wear to sch and nowhere else. hiakz.
and i saw lovely leopard print heels at babyphat and guess.. and this other beautiful pair of funny furry heels, nicer than the xodus ones i wanted.. hur. but i cant get them.. my mum doesnt trust online credit transactions.. booooo :(
oh well. im stuck with stuff selling in sg then.. too bad they dont have babyphat!! i want babyphat!! someone please open a babyphat flagship store here!!!!! i'll patronise you guys like, all the time!
grrr.
ohmygoodness. second time blogging today.. im becoming like ann.
anyway.
wahh. nice??? got somemore... hahahahahhahahahahahhaa.
up yours annabelle.
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slept for only a few hrs today, blah, mummy darling sent me to cheryl's place in the morning, bloody cold, sorry, she had to miss her ab biz becos of me... traffic jam, what a wonderful mummy, big kiss for u... stupid cheryl didn't have her camera with her, her dad took it to the office, bleah, waste my time. oh well, cheryl's mummy was happy to see me there, hohoho, becos i woke cheryl up, instead of letting her sleep like a pig, haha, cheryl was lying on her bed and kicking her legs, like a small baby, whining away, AW.... cheryl, booboo. hahaha.
was at her place, laughing at all the lousy pics we take. so funny, weird arhz,aiz, princess, i think we became uglier, last time take so nice, i used to be photogenic u know, bleah, now so ugly, hoho... oh well, nvm lahz, laugh loh, i think i became more chao lau. hootz hootz... ... how arhz... must be all those vices tt i'm accumulating... hehz...
went to bugis to meet darling bestie, wenting, stupid idiot, made us wait for so long!!! we went to watch harry potter. oh man, oh man, the movie wasn't as great as i thought it wld be... they missed out alot of crucial parts, like the world cup... quadritch" dunno what's the spelling", which is one of the usual norm focal pts of a harry potter movie. and also, they changed dumbledore, i mean dun get me wrong, the old man, is of cos fantastic in the lord of the rings, as gandalf, but in harry potter, he just lks kinda pushy, small and unintimidating, but i guess cos the movie producers are trying to push the fact to the audience tt dumbledore's gonna die in the sixth bk... sad, or maybe cos the actor cldn't fufil the role of the initial actor, thus the author decided to kill of the wonderful old man... remember reading the bk, and crying, oh man, sirus black too. i dun like harry potter anymore, all the wonderful main characters are dieing, i mean it's a children's bk, and i dun think any children's movie had any actual DIEING occuring, the first was the incredibles, and now harry potter's following suit... i teared when cedric died, so sad, what a nice wonderful boy, why do gd pple die first??? he kinda reminds me of handsome joseph, who's kind and sweet like him too. haha, and jo smsed after my movie, what a coincidence, haven seen the sweetie in a while... i remember sobbing when cedric, sirus and dumbledore died in the bks, reading and watching movies are gd, cos they evoke many feelings in u...
i didn't go to sch today, bleah, missed 2 lessons, for u arhz, wenting...
hmmm, was watching my fav hk serials just now, and u can really see tt pple do care for one another, and tt no matter how cheesy it is, pple do stuff, becos of a reason, and even if they didn't, it doesn't make them a bad person, so we all have to forgive and not judge pple especially if we dunno them... cos we're all the same inside, noone's purely evil, except for sick bastards who abuse children, i personally believe tt anyone who loves children, cannot be evil, yup... ...
oh yeah, i decided to get another pair of heels from pretty fit, dun really like the initial pair tt i got, i think they're too short to hiao walk in alr, and i can't change them, i mean i like my pair, but i guess it's more for casual stuff... gonna get a plain taller one, i mean my dress is quite outstanding alr, among all the other stuff, so better get a plain simple one nicer, later clash, dress got lace alr, heels still got big ribbons, oh tt, reminds me i better go get my furry heels, dunno, what's the matter with me man, what's up with all the heels!!! yay, gd...oh yeah, and i decided to get my xodus gold heels... yup, my special xmas present to myself, i really like the new xodus range with the swazsoroki crytals(again, wrong spelling, haha). i alr have one black pair by them... hmm, i think i've too many black heels, oh no, i'm not paying any attn to my wedges...next thurs, must hiao hiao walk, cannot hold back, dunno why i'm holding back, i usually walk outside more hiao then tt in heels. it's teh heels effect, it kinda makes u walk better. yup.:) heels does wonder for a girl's posture, and short skirts does wonders for a girl's legs, oh, littlr short dresses too!!! i found this damn nice black dress at phuture london, the material's nice and creazy, it's short, and oh yeah, the back's kinda low too, hmmm, dunno w it wld be showing too much, oh well, i'm young and not fat, so i guess not, haha... and i'll wear it with my gold heels,sounds wonderful, doesn't it??? :) nice clothes make me happy.. oh, but there's a minor detail, there's liek weird chains hanging on the dress, makes it look kinda yucky... oh dear, i hope i can take it out...
oh yay, thinking abt all the nice clothes and apparel tt i wanna get, i'm so happy!!!to everyone who try to drown their sorrows in alcohol, it doesn't work, it makes u even sadder!! try shopping,it works for me!!!i hope they're still have my size, so i can't take too long to get it...
i've been spending my cash too fast recently, eating, smoking and shopping... haven really been clubbing though, but i'll be at mambo, i think, i guess, tmr, see how lah, dun really feel like squeezing with all the stupid after as celebration kids, and oh yeah, zoukettes, pls check the prom dates for the various jcs, dun go ok??? cos it's gonna be crazy, and disgusting, last yr, after my jc prom, which i found stupid.it was so crowded!!! with silly girls in their puffy dresses blocking the way, with their big ugly hair, yech, like get out of the way, go humnp ur date in ur hotel room!! i mean isn't tt the norm??? i mean, if u wear short dresses, it'll be totally fine, but dragging ur long "princess" like crowns arnd zouk, just lks plain weird...
oh dear i got my period, hmm, hope i wunt be cramping up tmr night...or i wunt go!! oh, and yeah, i'm going for pbf tmr!!at least i wunt get my period during zoukout. hmmm, just hope it doesn't come on my pageant day, or it wld turn messy, urgh...
oh i feel so upset, i dropped like 5 cigs just now, during the movie, damn, and to think i found a pack with 5 or 6 cigs when i got home yst, so funny...blah, oh well, u gain some, u lose some...
yum, yum... i like...
my horoscope is seriously lying to me!!! why!!
just proves my point that astrologers are fucktards with their asses perpetually up in the skies. nabei. it says that i will have "plans falling through", that i will have "increased tolerance and understanding", and that im going to be set up on a blind date..not enough!! it even says that i will GO on that stupid blind date. chee bye. i dont ever make plans, im not exactly very understanding (emotionally sensitive, yes. not very understanding.) im feeling a little cranky, and i have never and never will go on a blind date. that's just plain retarded.
i know that my horoscope will lie to me 60% of the time i read it, but yet i still read it. maybe its me that's being retarded.. :( i always want to read my horoscope. i like to know things which (probably, or maybe not) happen. hahah. that's why i love horoscopes!! especially about, what venus moving, then mars moving, then venus moving back to her place, then in retrograd. whatever all that crap means. im going to kinokuniya to buy my horoscope book for next year!! hahaa.
okay. uhm, on to better things than my stupid lying horoscope...
i hope gracie wacie wont scold me and ann for putting that picture of her up here. hahahah!!! it was too tempting to resist.. and it wasnt even me nor ann who took it. guess who it was?? hahah. but we will post nicer prettier pictures next time round, okayyyy?? heeeeee :)
please la, we're not such bimbos, posting prettypretty pictures of ourselves all the time.. we're very intellectual and smart people who talk about more substantial topics other than horoscopes okay. (even though they fucking lie. grrr. cant get over it. ccb) oh, and we study too.
hulloooo!!!! the idiot is at my house now.. i shouldnt have opened the door for her..!hahahahahaha let her wait outside.
we are bored!!!!! ann! say hi!!
HIE!!!!!
okay, that was ann....idiot. ann the idiot. the idiot, ann.
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HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!! im dying of boredom.
byebye.
nice pictureeessss::
the hot babessss!!! dont get nightmaressss hohoho
haiyohz, dunno what cheryl's talking abt... i dunno, is this the one???blurrzzz alr... got so many pics,of u on my friendster...
sleep is good. says:
oi fucker
sleep is good. says:
take down that ugly pic of me
sleep is good. says:
my hair looks flat
sleep is good. says:
u better do it
sleep is good. says:
now
ann ling (hello evrybody, if i dun reply, tt means it's not me,i alw reply) says:
whatr pic???
sleep is good. says:
the one where my tongue is out and my hair looks flat!!!!
sleep is good. says:
the 2nd pic on yr stupid friendster
ann ling (hello evrybody, if i dun reply, tt means it's not me,i alw reply) says:
ni xi huan wo ma???
sleep is good. says:
bu xi huan
cheryl, i luv chu...besties forever
my pretty girls, small size, u guys can't see our tummies,haha
yay, got the shoes tt i wanted!!! but was in black, goes well with my dress too. oh,and i can get the dress at a discounted price, gonna buy it then get it altered, i want it fitting. heels too short, to really prance, oh well. went for classes today,quite fun, leok xi rocked man. her eyes, were like mesmerising everyone in the room, didn't know she cld ham it up like tt, u go girl... jealous. went for supper at thomson with some of the pageant pple, blah having a hard time trying to find app photos, blah, just fuck care lahz. nonsense... sigh, dun think me and gilson can get best couple, got no chemistry, hohohoh, and i actualy told the funky grad interviewee tt me and gilson will get it. quite a cool award... hohohoho
nabei, my pics for the banner so fucking ugly can??? can see the amount of blusher the toot head put on for me, yeah, i mean i know i'm pale can, but i'm not tt dead. fucking moron, i do the make up for u lah, chao chee bye...
2 more weeks till our pay comes!!! yay!!! then we'll be going shopping!! hahahahaha. we are going to catch the christmas sale!! or non-sale. whatever. as long as i get to buy stuff....i dont really care if there's gonna be a sale.
im eating again! this is getting out of hand. bleah. need to lose another 2kg to get back to my skinny self..of course not really skinny per say, but skinniest ive been my whole 19 years. doh. course i cant get super skinny, i eat wayy too much and my metabolism is not that high..so. sobsob.
kinda miss the job.. not the whole outfit of course..the girls were so nice, and i actually didnt mind the measly lunch breaks. hmm. you know why?? because i adapt to things very fast!!! hahaha really you know. i should have learnt how to smile properly when i take pictures though...didnt realise that taking pictures was a requirement for this stupid job...damn. now i look constipated in all the ugly pictures and i duno where the hell theyre posting them up on... :(
anyway..i have nothing more to say. just blogging cuz im super super bored... i like, got up around 6plus pm.. and its not that i slept damn late last night..i actually slept early!! about 1plus. so.....thats like about 15hours sleep!!! the longest longest ive ever gotten in sleep..hur hur. then i got up and ate, then i went to pack up my room..by myself!! without any orders to..hhahaha. now i can actually see my floor..hah. but ive realised my closet is bursting..time to take stuff to salvation army, or give my cousins handmedowns. hahaha. hur.
mambo on wednesday...dont really feel like going already..bleah. havent really felt like drinking or clubbing in a while..good lor. save money.go shopping. haha. better than spending it in such a useless way. i know, im weird. i use money to get things which i can see or wear.. if i cant, i wouldnt know where my moolah went.
im going to eat supper..bye.
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yay, last day of expo,no more stupid morons, no more perves, no more smiling for pics, gonna take a break from the pic section. haha, i hope,no more sucky food, most of all, no more boots and stupid lousy icky food, and oh yeah, no more waking up SO EARLY!!!!!!
yuey came down with ben. hohoho... ... forgot to ask andrew again abt the smsung discounts, oh well, whatever, sam sung products aren't tt gd anyway... haha.
heard some new secrets today, hohoho, any told cheryl, who else wld i tell all the secrets to.
my wkend has gone in a flash, blah... i want my friday nights, they're the most impt to me in the whole wk of 7 days...
boo hoo, tmr's gonna be a busy day as well, can't rest, gotta wake up early and get my heels fitted at pretty fit, dun like the footwear there, but hey, at least we're getting it free!!!, interview with funky grad, and then classes at night, back at sch, wtf??? in heels too, nevertheless, better remember to bring heels. i'm such a ditz sometimes.
i'm putting on wt, wtf?? i though i wld lose wt by doing the rdshow, but it kinda worked the other way rnd, i kept feeling so freaking hungry!!!!
oh yeah, someone scolded me just now, when i was walking home... some stupid young boy, screamed in my ear, wtf??? what did i do??? had earphones on one side, so i cldn't really hear what he was so pissed abtt, startled man. did i kill ur mum?? oh maybe i helped kick his dad's butt in jail. YEP!! i did tt b4, some pervy crazy guy, 1 yr, so dun mess with me, huff...
okay,another bodily problem caused by samsung, pls compensate. my stomach hurts from the aircon, it's tooooooo cold!!!! Chilly... ... not gonna wear any midriff tops for a while, i think, haha... oh well.
stupid matt said tt my blog's just like any another girl's blog,blah, fuck u, i bet u're spying anyway.HELLOOOOO.... i better see u on 25th!!!!
took a bloody cab down today, 15 bucks, nabei... wtf??? taxi driver kayu. and i was the earliest there!!!! so much for being early, better be late, u dun wait, cldn't even show charlene what a nice young responsible lady i am. poutzz...
Anyway, andrew said i cld get a 20% discount for the sam sungs products,except for the phones, i need a new phone, still using the temp lousy phone, after dropping my darling phone into the toilet bowl, at gothem a few mths back... decided what phone to get alr,haha... happy, i want new products, i'm in a dilema now, i wanna go shopping too,but i want a samsung phone, samsung digi cam, and a samsung printer, can't possibly ask my parents to pay for me, feel bad...
cos it's all for me and me only!!!!And i can't save, i spend whatever money i've on me, like crazy... no concept of money. but i believe in buying whatever catches ur eye, money is meaningless. keep for what, spend lah... i'm a converted sam sung fan, haha, probly cos i can get a discount, hohohohoho.
yay, tmr's gonna be the last day, can't wait... yay,no more shivering, talking to stupid morons, who have nuffin better to do then come disturb us girls everyday. lewers, i mean if u're really interested in knowing the functions and stuff, i'll be happy to oblige u!!! but pls do not waste out time... not interested in telling ya abt our personal life.
yay, finally, i can get meet my darlings and myself, haha, i miss myself... i wanna go to the balcony... anybody wanna join me????? we'll be chilling at the balcony...
oh,anybody wants to go to a full moon party at koh samui??? i think i'm going... hahaha
my msgner sucks, can't receive files, smtg wrong with my network, wtf??? and my friendster suck, take so long, to upload!!!
hohoho,i've got an interview with funky grad on mon, and they added me on friendster previously too. haha, i'm a funky grad... haha
oh man, another long day tmr,even longer, i'm gonna be on my best behaviour.haha... prepare to say boo hoo to pvc forever, and ever and ever, not gonna go thru so much shit anymore, tried and tested, dun wanna try again... ...
jinghow's irritating me now... stupid drunkards...
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1) ann your photo of yourself previously blogged is funny, very very funny
2) we need to work together after your work
3) cheryl pls help me find my sandals and i need the wp day cream i ran out of moisturisers
4) ann, dont be depressed. we love you. try keeping a pet dog at home talk to it when u cant sleep. thats what ppl says but i dont know why my dogs sleep so early. and they get irritated and walk away when i try to disturb them at night. sigh...i'm depressed.
5) i need $$$
6) i have enough of the days squeezing up buses and trains and putting up long travelling hours. time to do something about it.
7) i need a new house and car of my own. i need more privacy and more comfort.
8) i want to be taller. okay something more realistic i want to be slimmer.
9) hey ann, why not u go sign up for adsense and we earn tru our blog. hahaha like dawn
10) byebye
hey please don't raise your brow and get it wrong. i just need some moolah just like anyother girl. i need to go shopping i need to eat i need to pay my ex phone bills i need to feed my dogs i need to buy newspaper to clean my dogs' poo......
hey cheryl i think i put back the 5 kg i lost last week. i cant stop eating. and i miss u and ann so badly.
tell your mummy i miss her too and i miss your daddy playing minesweeper. ooo so cute. i will come over once my grandma 's back ok!
okay i sound really disgusting here and i shant continue.
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my dahling ann has been complaining that i dont blog. well,cheryl is here!! (its just cuz im not as free as her to be online all the time. i spend my time stoning.)
anyway, what's there to say?? firstly, i hate my ipod. even though its nice and pink and has wonderful songs...its spoilt!!! but i dont dare to bring it to apple center to get it fixed cuz 1) i'll lose all my songs!! and i cant download cuz my programme's not working, and 2) it will take a full week!! so people..dont buy the ipod mini. buy samsung's mp3 players, they're better. hahahah!!
secondly, i hate my boots. yes queenie, we'll go early tmr then you can snatch your size9 boots and i'll snatch my size8. hahahah..
thirdly, i hate my weight. why is 2kg so hard to lose???? grrr. i want to go back to when i just lost weight....but this job dont seem to be making me lose weight..however much we stand and however little we eat.. bleah.
but of course...even though i hate three things in my life.. i have to count my blessings!!!
firstly, i have an ipod. i should appreciate that instead of bitching about it when it didnt even do anything in the first place except come up with little reminders of how battery is running low cuz its my fault for throwing it around.. :( ive learnt my lesson!! please listen to me from now on..i promise i wont hit you. promise.
secondly, even though i have to stand in tight little boots for 9hours straight and get tortured with only one measly 15minute lunch break,and like ann said, be stuck in our smoking corner eating ta pao food..we are getting paid nicely!! (i mean nicely as in compared to other jobs,like uhh you know what la huh) plus the lunch is free..hahahahah. ehh must save money la, for shopping right??? and at least we even have a nice little smoking corner with a nice little table covered in a nice little cloth with one chair at the side..so one can sit on the table and the other on the chair.. and at least we can still afford our marlboro packs..(btw,i think viceroy downright sucks now. the filter is like damn soft and i feel like im seriously sucking air..makes me wonder why i should pay 9.60 to suck air when its like freakin free la cb)
thirdly, ive lost 1kg already..bleah. 2 more 2 more!! i should just lug myself to the gym..seriously. or even go for a little jog. wouldnt waste me much energy right..mummy.... drag me to exercise again please..
fourthly, i have my family!!!!!!
fifthly, i have my friends!!!!!!!
sixthly, i have my , uh. bed!!!!!! and my comfy comforter of couse. thats why they call it comforter. to make you feel comforted at night when youre sad.
okay,out of point. but you get what i mean la huh.
yay!!!!! shopping in like 2 and a half weeks!!! wahwahwahaah so many things to buy... ooh,i suddenly remember my guess sweater,can add that to my christmas list.
(p.s: dont ever put christmas as xmas, cuz by leaving the word 'christ' out, youre being uber rude. seriously.)
byebye !!
hmmm, actually, the anal retentive bitch is quite nice, oh no, i feel so evil.... told u i'm evil, bleah... didn't go down to zouk again, haha, oh well, dun really care, zouk's not a major part of my life anyway... bad things happen there, haha, dun remind me, funny embarrassing stuff too!!
wasn't late today!!!! haha, at first i had to wear boots even smaller than what i wore on the first day, lucky, i manage to find sumone to replace it, hoho, i manage to get boots 3 sizes bigger, yay,big and more comfy, although it still hurts like a bitch. haha, met this funny girl who's even sillier than me, haha. looks liek the haughty type at first, but she's sososo nice. my roadshow girls are hot, haha, my pageant girls are sweet, hohoh, jealous much guys??? there were a few weird guys at the rdshow today, i mean like seriously freaky...
nuffin got stolen today, yay, 3 cheers for tt!!! grace, and her darling prabu came down, marcus came down too, and matt came down too. matt brought me sweets, haha. took super lots of pics today, as in with the sam sung camera and printer, hohohoh, too bored, and took many hilarious videos meant for our own use, but ehz, the customers, kept putting on display tv, and laughing at me, i was goofing off, alright??? one even kept it on pause where i made a pig face with the nostrils thingy, pple were looking arnd for tt weird girl on tape, how embarrassing!!! haha, but amusing though, i really dunmind looking stupid just because it's funny, i rather be funny, then a stupid plastic girl tt looks perfect all the time, haha, check out my friendster pics, if ya dun believe me. hohohoh, one more nice pic to print out tmr, i hope i dun forget. hahaha...better get my scanner, and put up the pics, or this blog's gonna be preeettty boring, just my stupid ramblings...
blah, i'm having a fat day today, ate quite a bit today, and i feel like eating even more... tummy was bulging out today, blah... i want abs!!!
hmmm, i'm becoming a samsung fan, haha, wanna buy quite a few of their products...
met cai xia today, at suntec, lucky girl got 150 bucks to buy a purple dress tt she can keep for some advertising event on tues, probly getting pay after tt too.
bleah, i've like blood clots on my legs, because of the long long standing hrs!!!! this sucks, i hope my legs wunt get amputated, i like my legs. and i hope my calves dun get bigger due to the high high high heels, sucks man. i wanna be taller, like 2 or 3 cms taller, yeah... ... hey everybody, fiona xie is so much shorter than me, even in her heeled boots, hohohoho. but she's way prettier though, just dun get y is she wearing shades when it's like 8 pm, in a building, nv the less, she's one hot babe, hmmm... just wondering did she go for plastic as well??? i'm jealous of her.
oh yeah, haha, i appeared on channel newsasia, hohoh, blah, didn't get a lk at it, darryl called me to tell me, haha, oh well, i missed it, so booya to me(anybody watches kim possible??)
well, nos are gonna swell, during the wkends, so, yeah, gotta get ready for tmr, no dancing for the queenie tonight!!
big kiss, darlings......
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blah, woke up late, slept like only for 1 or 2 hrs, woke up half an hr ltr than the time tt i was supposed to reach the conventional hall,lucky daddy dearest sent me there. THANKS!!!!
lucky, the boots were quite big today, someone took my too small boots, haha... but i still had no feet. i had no food until 3, they provided us with boon tong kee chicken rice, we didn't even have a proper place to eat lah... had to eat at our smoking place,bleah... and the late comers were the last to eat, cos we came late... ehz, okiez, fine loh, i nearly fainted...
mediacorp took a short video clip of me, wonder if i wld appear int he news tonight, looking stupid, i had to smile and wave at the cam...
fiona xie and ben yeo came down too. she's really pretty, seen her lots of time at zouk as well, they were doing a short show...
so tired, gotta catch the news, haha, so funny... hope i wunt be late tmr!!!
wldn't want rachael to get scolded again, because of me...
feel bad...
hohohoh, i'm addicted to blogging, maybe cos i've got nuffin better to do...ormaybe cos i can't sleep/ argh, have to wake up at 8 tmr, insane, wearing the same too small boots. argh.. no cheryl tmr too.blah... who am i gonna fool arnd with and pass time faster???
baa baa black sheep
have u any poo
one for cheryl,
and another one for
lil grace, too
y u girls all so nice,
y u girls all so sweet,
y u girls all so pretty,
y like that?
y do u girls make me feel
like i'm the most evil one among all.
i can find no faults.
sweetness, not stifling me,
genuine...(lks weird, correct spelling)
i feel funny,
cos it's not supposed to be this gd..
my girls got sweetness,
just like marsh mellows.
so weird, summore, got 5 of u...
bleah, except me, so evil and cranky...
* wait for pics of my sweet sweet girls*
ps:i'm still amazed by their gdness... this is crazy...
♥
wore my black heels as i said in the previous entry, yep, when i turned up, err........ all the girls were wearing birkenstocks. WTH??? oh and it kinda turned out tt i need not wear them? cos i was going for the classes which i kinda mentioned a thousand times, oh well,but they r so freaking nice and sweet!!!! went to num, for the er... casual wear and swimsuit, their skirt was kinda a tad too long, and their top was kinda a tad weird, for me lah, i'm not the sporty kind... understatement of the yr...my girls looked totally great in the bikini, serious... funny how the prettiest girls can complain abt their faults, when i dun see any at all. i like the pageant girls, they're genuinely nice and sweet, they say "pretty pls and yes pls" liek they were born to say it!!! amazing. most girls wld just sound werid and stupid, well, except for me and clarice, we more garang and outspoken...
went off for lunch first, then went to kai for fitting, was a lil upset by the dress they had, but when the 2nd selection came, yeah, i was amazing surprised, pretty cool, but, all the dresses were too huge for me!!!! oh well, but i found this amazing black tube dress,love it, love it,love it... wld kinda have prefered it to be tighter though... bleah the 3rd selection was supposed to come in ltr, but i had to rush off, sigh... nvm... i like the black dress, but i kinda hope it'll go with gilson's clothes, cos ehz, the designer makes the last decision... other girls, pls nononoononon, dun take my dress. MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! found out tt pretty fit sponsers our shoewear, yeah, whatever... erm, but it'll be really cool, if i had the gold heels with the ribbon, we're getting the heels for free, yay!!!!
rushed down to suntec, met cheryl and sis. bitch replaced clarice without even telling her!!! and cheryln was supposed to be her replacement!!! she chased her away, didn't let cheryln replace me, so i cld take off for my classes....
wardrobe dysfunctions!!!! cheryl bought kid's stockings for me, er,i tore a huge hole, my stockings ran... i cldn't even wear the stockings properly!!!
haha, cheryl was worse, she actually tore her sleeve out, no longer connected, when she lifted up her arms to yawn, one of the other girls actually stared at her. haha... and i kinda forgot to zip up the back of my top, ehz, yah, and i went out to the convention hall, how freaking funny. haha
was really cold and tiring. i felt like an idiot teaching the geeks there how to use the gadgets which i had no clues... they even said they didn't understand what i was talking abt, fuck i also dun understand what i'm talking abt!!!! morons, i'm alr trying, go to the bloody website!!! took tons of pics with everyone there, ehz, i think i really look diff from my real person, cos one actually shook his head at the pic, and yeah, there were a few gps that took like 5 or 6 pics. ehz, sorry lahz... sumore most of them were from other countries,(there were gamers from 66 countries!!), and yeah, cldn't really translate their funny looks and grants, dunno w they're laughing at me and my stupid plastic costume which probly lks worse on film? oh, and there was this really sweet guy tt gave me and cheryl keychains, so sweet, haha... alot of press were there too, overseas as well, fuck balls, idiot, dunwan my pic to appear in the papers... urgh...
oh yeah, and the worst thing??? sumone actually stole a mp3 player tt cost 700 bucks, wtf??? how despicable can u get? they cut off the plastic string, i feel so bad!!! they're not asking me to compensate, lord knows they can afford it. they made sign a contract right after tt, making us viable for future losses, wtf??? my section is like the easiest to steal stuff from!!!! it's a circular booth, right in the corner, no matter how alert i am, i can't possibly take note of all the corners!!! a circle has no corners, the arsehole actually picked the mp3 player which was obstructed from my view!!!! i have to take pics, have to explain to the freaking idiots!!! just press play lah!!! how the hell am i gonna multitask, plus, i'm the only one in my section!!!!!!!
the promoters were like ermz, changing outside the cubicles, and they were wearing g-strings, haha,ok, hot bods.
went to starbucks to rest my aching feet and frown...
another 4 more days... bear with it
♥
this one?? cute enuf??? stupid...
this one??? glam/amazing enuf??? morons...y does my stupid neighbour alw smoke when i smoke??? irritating, stupid fat bastard in red... or maybe cos i'm alw smoking. haha. met a smoker today, showed him my nicotine stained finger, he gave me a lk and said" wow, tt's the first time i've ever seen one so bad" time to quit!!!
i hope my idiot neighbour flicks his butt into his parrot cage,and cooks his stupid bird alive, damn thing keeps calling my name out, early in the morning. stupid thing... shut the fuck up...
my dad's being dumb today too, was smoking at the balcony, he went out for a jog, saw me, and asked me what was i doing... imotioned to him the smoking action, and waved my cig to him, didn't get it, asked me talking on the phone??? thinking??? refused to leave, even though i alr told him, even asked me who am i. ???? crazy dad...
ps: i know i whining and taking it out on pple, just bear with it, i'm too freaking pissed, i donot like to be compromised to a time frame, i donot like to feel obligated to do stuff...
on the bright side, after tmr, it's gonna be better :)
finally went for classes today,lucky i didn't go to sch last wk, class was cancelled. paid attn, pretty simple, dun really know why i went. met kelvin and russell for lunch. supposed to go for econs, but decided not to, went down to suntec, bought my top, dun really like it alr, y do things alw lk better when u wanna get them???
went to watch just like heaven, really nice and sweet show...
went down to to the convention halls for the briefing, met clarice there, the guy was blabing on and on abt the products, but i didn't really listen, dunno what he was talking abt. i hate technology... gonna give a blank lk to everyone. although i look terrible in the costume, but i think u guys shld go down to the convention hall, if ya have the time, the stuff there's pretty cool and they're holding the world championship gamers thingy down there... yep, just dun laugh at me.
have a million and one things to do tmr, clashing schedules, have to leave early. bloody pageant, can't stand the freaking pageant, so freaking annoying, want this, want that,freaking disorganised as well... so dumb... wished i haven went for it, so bloody troublesome... now they want 2 extra pics, one glam and one cute, huh, by thursday, nevertheless?? wth! stupid modelling classes which are held at night, can't make it for the first one, heard the trainer's not very happy, poor gilson darling has to do without me for just one night... my black heels are with cheryl, forgot abt it, they want heels tmr, for fuck, have to wear my sis's ugly black heels, my other black heels is reserved for clubbing, too bloody high, too uncomfortable to be walking in it the whole day... blah, all my mum's fault, keep throwing away my stuff. few selection left. poo...
dun even think i can make it to mambo tmr...
will be too poofed out and have to wake up early the next day.
fucking hell, this sucks...at least i've my new top :)
ok, just realised i'm a loser, blogging by the hr, instead of days or like whatever. i think i'm adicted to rambling to myself.
just had a freaky nightmare, woke up sobbing... too scared to fall asleep. nobody's awake and nobody's online.spoke to cheryl for a while, but didn't want to disturb her too much, so i'm left feeling disturbed. the dogs keep barking. Darn...
♥
cheryl... i'm troubled, traumatised even...
biting off more than i can chew.
fuck... i hate this wk, everything's going wrong
The first week of the month will leave you feeling a little uneasy. Emotionally, you will have gone through some ups and downs. The New Moon on the first of the month is a good time to make goals and start the wheels in motion for something new. However, for you it won't be completely smooth sailing. There may be some challenges to contend with, especially concerning your self-confidence
ok, settled, got thru fine...
By the second week you should be a little clearer about what direction to take, but there will still be hurdles to overcome. Frustrating miscommunications could begin to occur from November 14 on for a couple of weeks. Watch for the tendency for emails to get lost, phone messages to get deleted and missed appointments that have a lasting impact. (happening right now) To avoid problems, try to have a backup plan in place, leave lots of notes for yourself and keep copies of correspondence. This influence could take a toll on Gemini, especially around November 17, 21 and 23, but if you are prepared the effects could be less dramatic. A period of unsettling change will lessen as of November 15. This is not a great month for you to make major commitments, final decisions or big life changes. Set goals indeed, but wait until the right time to move on them. Otherwise, you will be met with roadblocks and frustration. Watch the tendency to be rash and impulsive. Taking unplanned risks will cause regret and possible emotional pain.(yeah, experiencing tt right now)
eh, yeah... fuck balls. mercury's turning retrocade for 3 wks. for geminis,it's gonna be pretty bad...
i'm depressed... save me... ...
woke up late today, blah, cldn't sleep,tossing and turning the whole night, fuck...
slept for like only 2 hrs, blah...
luckily there was another girl, who didn't even turn up, haha.
poor cheryl had to wait for me.
OKAY, the bloody costume is like horrendous, damn horrendous, really dunwana do it alr, but sigh, can't get my friend in trouble... hate this shit...
got onto a horrid cab driver who drove us rnd and rnd in circles,and had the nerve to accuse us of misprounciating the street!!! arse...
starving, went down to starbucks at concourse to eat, i had a bagel and latte, needed the caffeine to perk me up,thought i was going to sch, but hehz, did not, haiz,
yup, but tmr, i'll go to sch!!! FULL DAY!!!
went window shopping with cheryl, was really tempted to buy this 2 pair of gold heels, i love gold, damn nice.
THEN..........................................................................
haha, i found the nicest top ever, didn't bring enough out with me, just lacked a lil to purchase the top, i love it, love it, love it.
blah, hope nobody will buy it, there's only like 3 pieces left, and i hope nobody grabs my size, i'll be damn sad, if i go back and discover tt the top's gone...
wanted to catch domino, but nowhere's showing it!!!!!!
BLAH!!! really wanted to catch it...
haven really had the mood and time to go catch the movie, i skipped sch just to watch it!!!
And there weren't any timings, what rotten timing...
so, then went to another starbucks at suntec, to study for a while,but cheryl looked dead,
sowe went out...
really really tired, gonna try to stay awake for a while, and then go pop a pill to sleep later, i gotta get up early tmr...
yay, see ya grace tmr, must come stats with me, very long nv see u alr... show me ur earrings. hopefully tmr, i'll be able to buy my top. And cleo, i still hate u for forgetting to call me!!!!!!!!!!!
oh and haha, try pting a ballpt pen at someone, it's really scary, haha, thought it was dumb, but when cheryl pted at me, i did really get a feeling, tt she's gonna and lunge at my neck, sensitive area, reminds me of grace's horror story, haha.
haha,the game i was talking abt,tim's stupid small head, whack that crazy bitch!!!!!!
oh,oh,oh, baby!!!!!!!!!
cheryl:"i'm ur sexpot..." haha, ann and grace:" bleck!"
nabei,all ugly pics, y arhz, haha, nvm, i learn where's my best angle, lol....
partners!!!!yucks, i lk fucking weird here, haha
hohohohoh, finally,haha, can upload pics, yay,my first baby steps to being a cyber chick,urgh...yech
now just have to learn how to put up music for the blog, and videos for my friendster.
hello queenie, i can see youre very very bored.. and gracie, when did you post that???? its weird seeing how i was with you just now and i didnt realise you could connect to the net...hmm.
anyway, im here to say that.....
I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!!! YAY!!!
hahaha!!! nice?? it took me a while to change the colours, you know..
well, anyway,id ont see why some people hate christmas. yeahhh...the deocrations this year kinda suck..they should have green lights too! but still...its still christmas right!!
decorations no decoratins it dont make a diff to me. hohoho.
was at east coast macs studying with graciewacie..and her little friend. hahahah. at least i got some stuff done..been kinda into the whole theories on lit thing im gona be tested on..yay!! realised east coast park is also damn relaxed..so nice.. next time we go there chill okayyy??? dip ourselves in ice water hahahagahaha./ chill. hah!! i love slang words..theyre so funny. like,dude. i mean, what the hell does dude mean??? doood. can it refer to both a guy and a girl?? or is it only meant for guys, and girls must use dudette. like,wtf. dudette doesnt even sound half as cool as dude...dooood.
and what does yo mean?? like yo man,whats up. what does it stand for?? is it like 'hey', or 'hello'??? and why do they always term it with whats up?? nothings up,. i hate it when people ask me what's up..nothing's up la, why are you asking me anyway?? up yours. oh, and what does duhhh stand for??? is it onomatopoeic? because it doesnt actually look or sound like a word.. more like a sound,yes? but then again, who says duh meaning it to be a soung?
ah hell.whatever
on to my christmas list!!!! :))))
I WANT:
- my turqoise heels from xodus
- a pair of nice black heels to match with everythinggg.. havent found it yet, but i know youre out there..
- a new handphone,preferably the samsun e730a,, i think
- all the tops from guess and marciano. ahahahhahahahahahahahahahahah. i love!!
- that funny little bag from novo.
- a pomeranian, however the fuck you spell it. so cute. or maybe a maltese-pomeranian. youknow, like a crossbreed kind of thing.
- oh, and i forgot, my two front teeth. HAH
plus whatever else i see when i go shopping,ill just grab. hardeehar.
and thats it!! i dont ask for much right.....see. yay!! gracie!! your turn to list out your christmas wishes..hahah. queenie!! i told you the shoes from babyphat fucken nice ahhh!!! i like the black boots with the little silver thingy. okay,add that to my list tooo.
ahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahh.
okay,wo yao chu du shu le. jai zian ta zia. wo ai ni men. muahz!!!!!
♥
hold my hand and run with me,
do not hold my hand, trip me
and expect my mouth to fall str8 on ur dick
cos i ain't no slut,
even if i were,
i'm a selective slut
do not judge me,
u know nothing...
do not anger me,
cos i've a bad temper
do not hurt me,
cos y wld tt make u feel gd
i'm just a girl,
with harmless intentions,
regardless of what u think i am
as i said,
u know nothing
do not treat me
like a toy
i've feelings too
just like u
get it right to ur mind
i ain't ur freaking blow up doll
do not even try
i know all the tricks
no matter how much we think we know abt a person or matter, we'll nv know the truth, cos the truth ain't so str8 forward, a saint is not just a saint, a saint can be evil too at some moments...an apple can be red, with tinges of green, but it can taste just as gd, as sweet, depends on the way how u look at things.so things are rosy, even when times are bad...
I heard this old story before
Where the people keep on killing for their metaphors,
But don't leave much up to the imagination.
So I want to give this imagery back,
But I know it just ain't so easy like that.
So I turn the page and read the story again and again and again.
It sure seems the same,
with a different name.
We're breaking and rebuilding and
we're growing always guessing
Never knowing
We're shocking bet we're nothing
We're just moments,
we're clever but we're clueless
We're just human, amusing and confusing.
We're trying, but where is this all leading?
We'll never know.
It all happened so much faster than you can say disaster.
Want to take a time-lapse and look at it backwards.
Find the last word and maybe that's just the answer that we're after,
But after all we're just a bubble in a boiling pot.
Just one breath in a chain of thought
We're moment just combusing
We feel certain but we'll never, never know
It sure seems the same,
give it a different name
We're begging and we're needing,
and we're trying,
and we're breathing
Never knowing
We're shocking but we're nothing
We're just moments,
we're clever but we're clueless
we're just human, amusing and confusing
We're helping, rebuilding and we're growing
Never know
Knock knock coming door to door
To tell you that their metaphor is better than yours
And you can either sink or swim and
things are looking pretty grim
If you don't believe in what they're spoon feeding
It's got no felling so I read it again and again and again
It sure seems the same,
so many different names
Our hearts are strong, our heads are weak,
we'll always be competing
Never knowing
We're shocking but we're nothing
We're just moments,
we're clever but we're clueless
We're just human, amusing and confusing
But the truth is all we got are questions
We'll never know
sickening, nv gonna get any str8 ans,when smtimes all we need is a true yes or no, things can be tt simple, y complicate stuff??
